A New Chapter

So we finally did it. We moved into our very first home! It has been full of so many different emotions. I have felt like we have been on a roller coaster ever since we got our keys but I would want it any other way. I love my home. Jim has worked so hard to make it a wonderful, peaceful and beautiful place for us to be already. Xander loves having so much room to play and his own space again. His favorite room in our home is the crawl space under the main level that we have made into his play room. He would spend the whole day down there and we totally content to just pop up for food every once in while, which is beautiful to me as I try and organize the rest of the house. I started my summer holidays just this week so now I can really get cracking and organize my chaos. Its wonderful to be able to be home and getting things done again during the day, however I must admit the urge is huge to lounge all day in my jammies with Xman. Now that I am not working again I am going to work hard on writing more because I find it helps me to sort through my thoughts. I also have such a funny child that I really need to be better at writing down his moments so that they are never forgotten.
Here is one for the day, Xander and I went to my moms to hang out for a while and get away from his path of destruction he seemed to be on in our own home. We were all hanging out in the living room talking (totally boring for a little boy almost 3) and uncle Kimball is laying on his stomach on the ground resting his eyes. Xander walks over to him and proceeds to quote Frozen while trying to wake him up... "wake up, wake up, wake up," rolls over and lays on uncle Kimballs back "I cant, the sky is awake, so I'm awake, so we have to go play" oh it was the best moment of the day. When all is said and done, the food is spread across the floor and Jam on my rocking chair, marker on my couch and a freshly watered carpet, with Highlighted the parts he must have loved in the book I had just set down. This little boy can take all the frustration away in a heartbeat. He is my heart and soul.
I feel the need to share one more thing before I am done for the evening. I love my family so much, My husband is the absolute love of my life. I couldnt have asked for a better best friend. I am constantly amazed by how much he loves me through all the emotions and crazy that I put him through. He is always so call and constant. We have an amazing son, as I have mentioned who lights up our life and makes us so happy everyday. We are such a happy family and we have wanted for 2 years now to make our family grow larger but it has not been in the plans for us yet. I say this not to gain any sympathy because I dont need it, I say it because for the first time since I made up my mind that I wanted #2 I have finally become ok with accepting whatever our family gets. I feel I have wasted to many tears that could have been a smile elsewhere and to many thoughts that could have been happier on something else. I know my family is ment to grow. What I have come to accept is the timeline which is different then originally planned. It is hard for me at times when I have people ask me if I am pregnant again and my thoughts go straight to "I wish!" but trust me when I say when it happens again and I am blessed to carry another heavenly spirit into this earth it wont only be the heavens celebrating you might just hear me from where ever you may be. Until then I am content to wait in patience. I will pass this test, and when I do, I know the blessings will be beyond my comprehension.  

SURGERY.... Yuck! I just wish I could switch with Xander so he didnt have to go without food all night long and no breakfast in the morning and then get taken in and handed to strangers while hungry and tired to go have surgery. I know its not as big a deal as I make it out to be and I know for sure that they are kind and capable hands that I am leaving him in but it just doesnt sit well with me. Oh well I guess its just a learning experience for me and it will be good. Just cant see it yet.
Well we are all moved in to our place and the only boxes that arent unpacked are my books because they dont have a space anymore since my food storage took over yet another shelf. Oh well, prioritize right?
well another day has passed and I just love my life so much. my earlier melt down is all I have had cause to worry about or stress about in the last little while and for that I am so grateful. I am so lucky to have such wonderful family on both sides and such great friends.

IM BACK!  So it has now been over a year since I have posted in my blog and I am going to be better. So many things have happened in this last year. My wonderful little family moved to a different house and we love it. We had some friends that just left for a a mission and we get the opportunity to watch their home for them. It helps us and them out a ton because it allowed for Jim to go back to school and I can still stay at home with my beautiful little son.
Speaking of my son, Xander turned a year old and I am still trying to comprehend that I now have a one year old. He is so smart and talented for a little man. Picking up on alot of words already, running and climbing up everything. I had the happiest moment of my life yet when I got to watch my husband and my son play hide and seek for the first time every. Nothing melts a heart more then when a baby sincerely is laughing because he thinks something is hilarious. He loves his daddy so much to and I don't think in the history of fathers on this earth that one has loved a child more then Jim loves Xander. I'm so proud!
We also got celebrate lots of firsts with Xander this last year, we had a first Halloween. It was pretty fun because we got to dress up and all match. Xander was the Cheshire Cat and Jim and I defiantly rocked the tweetle dee and tweetle dum costumes.  Another first was Christmas. That was so wonderful! He was only three months old at the time so he didnt really get excited much about it but I sure did. Im more excited for this coming Christmas because now he really likes to rip into things so this should be great memory!
So many other things have happened in the last year but I am going to leave with what I have said and just promise to do better. Life is so wonderful! It truly does bring new things with every day just like a box of chocolates brings new flavors with every bit!

Many New CHOCOCLATES!!!!

So I am way behind in my posts but I do have a good excuse. I HAVE A BABY BOY!! AND HE IS THE BEST IN THE WHOLE WORLD! His name is
Xander James Zemp
He was born on September 25th at Nine O Nine and he weighed 7 pounds and 13.5 ounces. He was 18.75 inches long and he is just so stinking cute its amazing. Im not going to lie, I was always worried about babies when they are new borns because they used to scare me being all wrinkley and purple. well I think he was beautiful from day one. He was just fantastic. He was born after 18 hours of labour... 3 of them hard labour and then they told me that he was stuck... I was so tired and I kept asking my mom why the heck anyone would do this twice. They finally had a doctor come in and see me and she hummed and hawwed and made her conclusion which she didnt tell the distraught crazy mophine high prego she just left and then in came a specialist and she poked and prawded and then hummed and hawwed and then she said well we are going to try a few things and if they dont work to move him along then we will go and do an emergency C section. Well I was ready to rip faces right off and I just said just get him out of me! Well they did what I said (dispite the fact that I was so weird, complete word salad... totally not there. apparently morphine and laughing gas are a weird mix. also morphine doesnt kill labour pains at all just so you know. just makes it slightly bearable). So they rushed me into the cut em apart room and gave me some anesthesia in my spin (not an epidural but thats another story) and within 15 min after they gave me that and I was numb and soon after that I had a son. I didnt get to hold him until almost midnight and that was sad to me but I wouldnt have been coherant enough anyway but all the same. Anyway I spent 3 days after in the hospital and now I am home and I love being home with my favorite big man and little man. I now offically have 2 loves of my life and its the best thing in the world. Well all in all it was an amazing experience and I loved most of it. Anyway I prob wont be doing lots of picture putting on with the photography assignment but I will be putting some on of my new son as I work out my skills on him. Hope you all enjoyed my story and until next time..... Bye!

Pictures soon

Alright so tomorrow is the day I am due and who knows. Maybe he will decide to come and hang out with me. I cant wait.

As for the picture project, I can only put them on when I visit my fantastic family. So they will be coming soon. Dependent upon if I am in the hospital or not haha

Best Thing ever just happened. I was emailing my fantastical brother on a mission and I knew that he would be emailing soon so I kept them short so he would get them, Well as I was emailing he emailed me. It felt like he was so close for a second I pretty much freaked out. Best thing ever! I miss that man. Well he gets home on November 9 at 6:30 in the Medicine Hat airport for anyone and everyone that wants to come and tell him that they love him. Be there or be square and Im serious. you will miss out if you dont come because its going to be the best day in the whole world. Well Im just so excited and buzzing from my little email swap with Dano. What a cool guy. If anyone wants to email him, his email is <nathan.atwood@myldsmail.net> but he cant always reply. I think he can only write back to family, but he loves to hear how everyone is doing and if you give him your home address he will write back. anyway, that is my overly excited moment of the day. Other exciting thing is that I have only 3 days left until I am due and I felt my little man drop more then ever today and I am getting more back pains and lower pains (not contractions just pains) then I ever have before so this is progress. I like progress.

picture challenge, saturday (color) sunday (13 things)

 So I didnt get a chance on Saturday or Sunday to come and put my pictures up for all to see, but I did have fun playing with them and taking them.

 

COLOR! I have a billion pictures I took of pencils and skittles. honestly Jim laughed at how long I could sit there and take pictures of the simplest of things. haha

On Sunday night I played with the 13 things category. I decided after playing around with all sorts of stuff that I dont know how to place focus on alot of images and make it still look good, so my take on this theme doesnt put a focus on the 13 things but believe me they are all there. Some are just harder to see then others.